I was hacked a few months ago by some sort of Chinese/Russian team, and once I got all of my passwords changed in a panicked hurry, I worked on getting better security, and started using Last Pass. Which meant that since it was on my iPhone as well as my desktop computer, I needed to start using a password on my phone to protect my information. I still hate having to do this and am irrationally resentful at the extra couple of seconds it takes for my phone to recognize my thumbprint.
Couple all of this with a new computer, and my brain is in overdrive. Now, some of this is on me - I hadn't progressed with the times and was still using Microsoft Excel and Word; my new computer is a Mac and I'm having to switch all of my documents to Google Drive, which I've been able to learn with help from my in-house technical support person, aka Allie. The new program isn't hard to figure out, but I'm dealing with some messy, unorganized files which are my fault...things I meant to get to eventually but never did, and boy howdy have they piled up (electronically, anyway) into what feels like an overwhelming amount of stuff to go through.
Along with needing to move and clean up files, I also needed to address my password situation - my original choices were all over the place and insanely complicated thanks to the paranoia that came with being hacked. I started working on everything a few days ago and was in a scattered, discombobulated state pretty quickly - along with learning how things work a Mac (which so far hasn't been too challenging - I guess because I've had an iPad and iPhone for several years now and am somewhat familiar with the Apple way of doing things), I was jumping from one thing to the next, and feeling like I'd never get anything completed.
In frustration I took a break, walked away from my desk, and got a big glass of water. As I drank, I realized that the same feeling I was having now about all the computer stuff was very similar to how overwhelmed I felt when I first started my diet, way back in 2008. I had an idea of what I needed to do, but when I looked into diet plans, I became aware of so many different ways to lose weight and as I read about one way and then another and then yet another way, I felt overwhelmed. And then I read my first blog where the writer had lost over 100 pounds and realized that even if I lost 100 pounds, I'd still be quite a ways away from what I thought was my goal weight and I really just about stopped the entire diet right then and there. This thing was beyond me - or so I thought. Obviously, I was wrong, but those feelings were real then and still wash over me at times during various situations.
Feeling overwhelmed about stuff is normal, especially when you're trying something different. Wanting to get it all done perfectly the first time is normal. Letting go of perfection - in this instance, not wanting to load anything on the computer that might clutter up my brand new hard drive - was hard. But I managed to do just that, which is why my old documents are still not quite organized, and we won't even begin to speak of the external hard drive full of pictures - I mean at least they are in labelled folders, but they need to be culled...and egad, my printed photos are insane...why oh why do I have double prints of everything?? See, I just went there - I do not need to think about that right now, as those photos are perfectly fine living in boxes in a closet.
For the moment, I'm able to use my new computer, which is why you're seeing this blog post, and my new set up makes me happy:
Photobomb by Henry. The computer is that little silver square box - a Mac Mini. My kadults are pretty awesome.
My new HP printer stopped printing after a few months, and Amazon came through with a refund, so I bought a Brother printer and set it up all by myself, wireless and all - and yes, I was really proud of myself after the fiasco of getting the HP printer set up.
I'm working on being more relaxed about things - stressing over my passwords didn't help the situation, even though I got everything cleaned up eventually. If I can just remember to apply this idea - to chill out, work through it, take small steps - I suspect my brain will be a lot happier with me in the future...in all instances. Plus I've got my passwords written down now for easier access - kidding! But that would make my life simpler.