I can't believe I've been blogging for seven years now. My gosh - I honestly just started this blog so that I would be able to look back and be reminded of how hard I was working to get the weight off, in hopes that I wouldn't end up doing my usual complete regain. I never imagined I'd still be here, seven years later, not only blogging, but also connecting with so many of you.
I could talk numbers, but it's no longer important to me what size I am, or what I weigh. I am so
relieved to be free of that - I tell you, it was quite the eye-opening day when I realized
that not only did the numbers police not exist, but also that no one really cared
about the exact number on my scale or on the label in my clothes.
Being at a healthy weight is one thing; obsessing over a specific
number is another. I let go of all that several years ago and have
never felt better about myself.
Do I have the body I envisioned I'd have? Nope. Am I disappointed? Eh, not anymore. I will say, I was pretty surprised when, after I'd lost 100 pounds, I did not look like a model. My arms were flabby and I had way more loose skin than I thought possible, my stomach never got flat, and my thighs were still pretty hefty. I discovered that weight loss in your 40s gives a different result than weight loss in your 20s - that, and the fact that by the time I started my last diet, I'd spent a couple decades being overweight, so my body didn't rebound like it used to.
I have come to terms with how I look now. It's 100% better than May of 2008, I can tell you that! And really, I have a strong, healthy body that pretty much allows me to run and jump and do crazy things, plus I have the energy to go along with all of that, so I'm grateful that I made the effort to lose weight. I've done a hell of a lot of living in the last seven years, experiencing things that at one time I just thought were for other people. Nope - turns out, I was one of those people. Seven years ago, I started out on what I thought was simply a weight-loss journey; I had no idea how much more it would develop into. Thanks for coming along on the ride with me!