I've had this in the back of my mind for a while now. Last week, I hadn't had much of an appetite for about five days - that sinus headache was making me feel really crummy. Normally I can feel crummy and still eat, so this was unusual, but the forever dieter in me will take it, haha. Anyway, thanks to Flonase, I finally started feeling better and I was HUNGRY on Thursday after I finished my volunteer shift at the hospital gift shop.
I stopped at the grocery store on my way home to pick up some Greek yogurt and a few other supplies, and I bought a turkey wrap from the deli for a late lunch. Now, I also wanted some chips - like, I wanted them bad enough that I knew I needed to purchase just a single serving-sized bag, because I didn't trust myself to eat a reasonable portion from a larger bag. I wandered around the store but only found some greasy Lay's and some Doritos in a single serving bag; my chip-of-choice is kettle-cooked BBQ, and these other flavors weren't going to fulfill my chip craving. I wandered some more, putting containers of strawberries and broccoli in my cart, when I came across some sliced cantaloupe. I normally don't buy already sliced up fruit, but it looked good, it was only 99 cents, and I decided to treat myself in lieu of the chips:
I ate a few slices before managing to stop and take a picture...because I'm sure no one knows what sliced cantaloupe looks like, LOL.
This did the trick - well this and the turkey wrap. I had a healthy lunch that tasted great, filled me up and made me feel good about myself, which was another small step in my year of making better choices.
My chip dilemma got me thinking about what was frustrating me with those bloggers I mentioned earlier. I think you have to decide if you're happier eating and/or drinking whatever you want versus denying yourself certain items in order to lose weight. Because quite honestly, it's not worth the angst to make half-hearted attempts to lose weight and then beat yourself up when you "fail" (and I put that in quotes because really, eating a bag of chips does not make you a failure, not at all). Either eat the dang chips and enjoy them, own them, and be good with your choice, or don't eat them. Much as I wanted the chips, I knew that I could not trust myself with more than one little bag, and since I couldn't procure the perfect flavor in a small size, I didn't eat the chips.
We all have our own version of food and/or drink Kryptonite. Knowing your reaction to such items can make or break your calories for the day; sometimes the best decision is avoidance while other times it's acceptance...and if it's acceptance, then enjoyment had better come along with that acceptance. No guilt allowed at that point!