And I don't like it.
Let me explain - it's not that I resent anyone for being able to do more than me, but rather, I'm realizing that the reason so-and-so seems to have an easier time with running might be because they are 10 or even 20 years younger than me, and their bodies aren't rebelling with random aches, pains, and such nonsense. Their joints, tendons, and muscles are still in their heyday of youth, while mine seem to be turning into the cranky old man who's waving his cane, yelling at the whippersnappers to get off his lawn. Quite honestly, it's annoying to be doing something "good for you" and hurt while doing it. Some days it just makes me frustrated to think that I'm up and out there early on a Saturday morning, while others are sleeping (not even sleeping IN, just sleeping to a normal time) and they are the ones who aren't hurting! Makes me miss my sedentary days - well, somewhat miss them, in a "things seemed better back then" nostalgia which probably isn't completely true, but indulge me for a moment.
Lately it feels like I'm having one thing after another pop up. From my right ankle, to the bone spur on the top of my left foot, to the new pain where my big toe meets the foot (apparently related to that bone spur). From the hamstring injury that is still hanging around, to the Achilles pain in my left foot (or is it plantar fasciitis?). Instead of things going away, it seems like they're just piling on. And that's just the bottom half - don't get me started on my elbows and weird nerve pain in one wrist. This is beyond annoying and frustrating.
I'm not pushing myself too much with the running, not in the least. I read other running blogs, and I'm not doing anything near to what many others do in terms of mileage or frequency of running. But then, I usually think to check the age of these bloggers, and sure enough, I'm quite a bit older than them. So is it age? Do our bodies really start falling apart? I want to say no. I want to will it to not happen. But I fear it IS happening, with or without my acceptance or permission.
And I don't like it.
I don't like it.