And why I eat a fairly monotonous diet most of the time.
First, let me say that I am not a foodie. Sure, I ate a lot of food when I was overweight, but it's not like it was gourmet...I got fat on fast food (hello Taco Bell and McDonalds), convenience food (hello pizza delivery), junk food (the three C's - candy, chips and cookies), and, of course, quantity - back in the day, I could pack it away like no one's business.
These days, I am pretty boring, and I know that what I eat would drive some of my friends crazy, because I tend to have the same things over and over. Why do I do this? Well, because it's easy. I don't have to think about it - and quite frankly, I don't want to spend a lot of time focusing on food. For me, when I do that, food becomes FOOD. And as you can see by my "before" pictures, I had a lot of years where FOOD was a huge priority in my life. No more. Most of the time, it's just something to stop my hunger. Sure, there are great meals, but I prefer for them to be few and far between. I've (mostly) lost my obsession with food - it no longer has the hold on me that it once did. And as with other addictions, I've accepted that it's a daily reprieve, which becomes evident when I do eat something that sets off my cravings and brings the actions of the "old me" back.
One thing that is almost always guaranteed to throw me off my path is sugar. I get more crave-y when I have sugar. Dark chocolate doesn't do it to me as bad as milk chocolate, but eating much of anything that's sugar-laden sets me off. I know some people can work that kind of food into their daily diet based on calories, but I have to consider the consequences, too...and most of the time, setting off cravings is just not worth the internal battle for me.
Also, if food is too good, I will actually avoid it. Jeff and I have even said, while eating something particularly delicious, "this is too good - we can't have it again" because we both know how easy it is to go down that path of overindulgence. Yes, this may sound crazy and abnormal to many of you, but after all of the struggles I've had with my weight over the decades, I'm probably not normal. Then again, who's to say what IS normal, right? All I'm doing is muddling through this lifestyle the best way that I can, figuring out what works for me, and, in the process, maintaining my weight loss.
And for me, that's enough.