Anyway, I said all that because as you know, I've stress eaten over those two things, and, coupled with losing a major calorie burner in running, I put on some weight - the fact is that while I can squeeze into the shorts I so effortlessly wore last summer, there is no way I would go out in public wearing them (much less attempt to sit down). This tells me that, were I to step on the scale, the news would not be good. But I don't need to do that - the shorts say plenty (those little brats). And honestly? I don't care how much I weigh anymore. I just know the "size" I want to be. I put size in quotation marks because with all the crazy sizing, you can't even really pick a size goal...but for me, I like how I look and feel when I can easily fit into size 6's and 8's (the shorts in question are a size 6, btw).
The good news is that my eating has been much more in check lately. And I've discovered something about myself - I'd much rather have a smaller portion now to maintain than eat less later to lose. Which is where I am now - eating to lose. You know what? I hate having to lose weight. I don't want to be doing this again. And yes, it's not all that much, in the grand scheme of things, and certainly not much compared to where I was in May of 2008, but having to lose any weight at all is no fun. And as we all know, I prefer fun.
So while I'm doing something I really don't enjoy (working to lose weight), I'm also trying to make this fun - well, as fun as it can be. I signed up for Biz's 101 Days of Summer Challenge - this is the second year she's hosting it, and it's been a good reminder of my summer goals. Plus she's been great about sending out motivational emails which helps keep me focused. My goals this summer:
- To eat super healthy for 5 out of 7 days each week
- To fit back into my smaller-sized shorts by the end of summer
- To make my body fit and toned by swimming 5 out of 7 days each week
You will be mine again, lovely silk dress!
I've already started on these goals with the return of my Texas-sized Big Salads. We've been eating them at least three times a week. Frozen yogurt only twice a week (those would be the two days of not-so-super-healthy-eating, although in the grand scheme, froyo is a pretty healthy splurge). No more bags of coconut M&M's. Tons of water. And we've been grilling chicken once a week - lately, we've been stuck on the combo of grilled chicken, brown rice, steamed summer squash, and the ultimate in deliciousness, grilled pineapple - holy cow, is that ever good!
I really should have a green vegetable on this plate, but the yellow squash is just really tasty right now!
I am taking advantage of the fact that I'm not working right now - and that means lots of pool time, Monday through Friday. Yoga (senior or otherwise, lol) when I can fit it in. Hitting the grocery store every few days for fresh vegetables and fruit. Taking the time to prepare healthy meals. I have the time to do all of this, and I will. I'm putting the focus on myself and how I really want to live my life for the long run - I think I got lost there for a while, but I'm back.