Unlike the previous two years, when I had a specific game plan for Thanksgiving eating, the only goal I had for this year was to not be in physical pain from overeating after dinner on Thursday. I know, dream big, right? LOL. I guess with all of the running, I've not had to be as stringent with my calorie intake in order to maintain my weight...and yes, that's all I've been doing lately, maintaining. And that's OK with me - I've got other things that I'm focusing on besides weight loss (hello half marathons). I've come to realize that even if I have an upday (or two) of ingesting more calories than I should, I've been able to even things out in the following days and my weight has been staying right around the 150 pound mark. How am I doing this?
- I'm not putting "rules" on food like I have in the past. If I really want something, I have it.
- That said, I didn't have a ton of options for our Thanksgiving meal - I made what my family loves - turkey, stuffing, gravy, sweet potato casserole, green bean casserole, cranberry sauce and pumpkin pie. No rolls, no mashed potatoes, no other kinds of pie...not that those items aren't good; it's just that they aren't the favorites. And why have other food available that yes, we all would eat, but no, we really don't need?
- I had one plate of food for Thanksgiving dinner, and one piece of pie. I was full, sure - it was heavier food, and more of it, than I normally eat. But I wasn't in pain, and I was happy.
- I had a piece of pumpkin pie for breakfast on Friday - yum, I love cold pumpkin pie. Then I went to work and had a Luna bar around 3:30 for a snack. By the time I got off work at 7:00 pm, I was hungry! Met Jeff and Sam for pizza at our local deli/bakery - I had a few pieces of thin crust pesto chicken pizza. Red Mango for dessert, and I was a happy camper.
- I had a piece of pumpkin pie for breakfast on Saturday (haha, notice a trend?) and then went shopping with Max. We all had a late lunch at our "healthy" Chinese restaurant, where Jeff and I split the steamed mixed vegetables and chicken. I even ate white rice with it - something I wouldn't have done a year ago. But it was good and I don't do that very often. Red Mango for dessert (why mess with perfection?), and later in the evening, after the boys left to drive back to college, I had a couple of pieces of leftover pizza. Followed by the last of the pumpkin pie.
- I woke up Sunday morning with my stomach growling, which, when I was actively dieting, always meant that I would show a loss on the scale. Did I weigh myself? Nah. My clothes fit. I'm fine. But, I took the stomach growling as a sign that I had unconsciously managed to regulate my calories without feeling deprived during the holiday weekend/visit with my boys.
- I don't think I'll ever think/eat like a "normal" person - that is, someone who never had a weight problem. And that's OK - because I know that I need to be ultra-aware of who I am and how far I've come. No matter how "normal" I might look on the outside, I know that there is the potential to be fat again. Still, it's nice to have gotten through a big "eatin' weekend" like this one without feeling like I took a step backward. Two and a half years into this journey and I'm starting to get it. There is hope!