Bah humbug! That pretty much sums up how I'm feeling right about now. I'm getting a little frustrated (ok, maybe more than a little) at how slow my weight is coming off compared to other bloggers. Yes, I know we are all individuals and everyone loses at a different rate, but what can I say - I'm human. And while I'm losing 3 - 4 pounds a month, lots of you are losing 2 - 3 pounds a week. I am so close to a major milestone - but I'm not still not there yet - and to be honest it 's pissing me off. Once I reach said milestone, I'll be about 20 pounds away from what I think will be my goal weight - which would be awesome if I could get this done in, say, the next freakin' millennium!
I don't know what else I could be doing. Brad noticed I was upset this morning (hard not to when tears are falling) and after I explained, he said my exercise is good. He offered to take a look at what I'm eating and see if it's not enough or too much or what. Which I will do, but I'm leaving for our vacation a week from tomorrow, and I'm not going to have complete control over what is available to eat, plus I will be, hello, on vacation and plan on enjoying the lovely foods of Hawaii (and Oregon, for that matter), so this really won't be an option until nearly November. Argh.
Oh, and another thing. I will be missing Linda when I come back from vacation - her mother, Alice, was just diagnosed with ovarian cancer and Linda will be taking time off to help care for her through the upcoming surgery and chemo. I'm sad for her mom, sad for Linda, and sad for me - yes, that's totally selfish, but I don't think I would have gotten so far with these workouts without Linda's encouragement. We've gotten to be friends, which has been a great bonus. And while we will be in touch via phone and Facebook, it's not the same when you see someone several times a week. Anyway, they are in for a rough road ahead, so if you can, please keep Alice in your thoughts.
As for my workouts, this week we were doing skill testing - seeing how far we'd come in the last six weeks on certain things. I went from an 85 pound bench press (one rep max) to 100 pounds, and improved my four minute wall sit to a little over six minutes. My plank hold only improved 30 seconds - up to three minutes thirty seconds (that is such a hard thing for me!)...and my bottom-to-bottom Tabata squats, where you do as many squats as you can for 20 seconds, and then hold the squat for the 10 second "rest" period times eight sets...well, let's just say I'm pretty sure they either stayed the same or went down - I am terrible at these things! I don't mind doing regular squats, but doing them in a Tabata is both a mental and physical nightmare for me. I did those Tuesday afternoon, and in this morning's class, where I was the only one who had already done them, Brad announced the Tabata squat - I swear, I didn't plan this, but the words "Nope, not gonna do them again" came out of my mouth - both Brad and Linda were a little shocked, as I never refuse to do things. What can I say, I was already in a grumpy mood and just wasn't having any of those darn Tabata squats - I did a mountain climber Tabata instead.
Well, if you've made it this far through my whining, congratulations and I'm sorry. Hopefully I'll snap out of this before I blog again!