Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Warning: Mood Swings Ahead...

Look what I won from MizFit! I am so excited - I loved Hungry Girl's first cookbook, and I cannot wait to see what she has in her new one! Thank you, Carla and Lisa!

I have to tell you, this could not have come at a better time. I really needed a boost. You might have noticed that I haven't posted anything since Sunday...I have been in a bit of a bad mood. You see, I'm getting impatient. Restless. Irritable. Discontent. Not with my diet, although to call it a diet feels kind of odd now. It's the way I eat. And I'm fine with it, this healthy, mostly-clean eating. I feel good and I've lost the desire to eat Taco Bell and other formerly delicious junk.

I'm just feeling pissy that this is taking so long! I'm coming up on a year since I started this journey, and while I have come a long way during this time, I still have a long way to go.

I'm loving my workouts, and yet at the same time, I'm getting mad at myself because my muscles aren't showing. I was watching Dancing with the Stars on Monday night (what can I say, it's my guilty pleasure) and the co-host, Samantha Harris, was in a halter dress that showed her upper arms and shoulders and damned if her muscles didn't look so nice and defined and I want that for me NOW! While I can feel my muscles growing, I can barely see them because there is still so much flab covering them. Yes, I am having a temper tantrum. It's not fair! ::stomps foot, slams door, pouts:: Logically, I know that there is not much else I can be doing. As the weight comes off, the muscles will eventually appear. But this just sucks right now.

Oh, and Jen at Prior Fat Girl is giving away granola - go here and enter!

12 comments:

  1. Congrats on winning the book! How fun. Don't forget to let us know how you like it.

    The temper tantrum stuff? I'm feeling kind of the same way, lately. I attribute it to this endless winter. And your muscles will get there. You're so dedicated, they just HAVE TO.

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  2. Congrats on the book! Prizes make the world go 'round. I really hear you about the frustration about lack of 'quickness' in seeing results - it can be really upsetting at times. I really commend your food attitude - it would be so easy to derail when these thoughts come about. You're doing it!

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  3. I was excited for you!

    now.

    do we need to mix up your workouts? are you in a tinyrutatall (Im asking--not rhetorical :))?

    even one day a week of something entirely different?

    you will love the cookbook for some EASY fun food changes!

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  4. You will get there. Hey, think about how far you've come and then think of the ones, like me, who are just starting. If you have to, just think to yourself that Samantha Harris doesn't really look like that. She's actually flabby and lays around on the couch in her spare time....Did that work?! Seriously though, don't beat yourself up. You are doing awesome. And think about how good you feel compared to when you first started. Chin up!

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  5. Lucky you with the book. Hope it helps lift the funk you're in. It's hard not to get down sometimes but just think of where you'd be now if you never started in the first place. A little look back sometimes helps the perspective. Hang in there.

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  6. I'm so jealous you won that! I finally just got my butt around to purchasing the first book and LOVE IT!!! You'll have to share some recipes with us, your favorite!

    You HAVE to have temper tantrums - its human nature. It's perfectly fine to whine and complain...but only as long as you do something about it. You are allowed to whine about having flab covering your muslces as long as you keep working out. If you stop workign out, then stop complaining. That's my theory anyways. That's what I tell myself when I feel like having a temper tantrum, that I can as long as I'm doing the work to fix it.

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  7. Congrats on the book win..That's very cool!
    As far as the arms being toned have you increased weight as you have been doing toning exercises? Have you changed up your upper body toning work out?
    Keep up your great work!

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  8. Temper tantums burn calories!! i hope. :-)

    I just saw that lady and her cookbook on one of the morning shows. She had some kind of tofu noodles that were 40 calories for a serving, but the thing I liked the most was adding the english peas to avocados for a lo-cal guacamole. I did that a while back and I really liked it, but I totally forgot about until now. That Samantha Harris is in good shape...yeah, I watch it too!

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  9. Congrats!

    Now you know very well you didn't gain all that weight in one year, so it's going to take time dear!

    You are doing so well, in fact you don't even consider what you are doing as a "diet" its already become your lifestyle!

    Keep up the good work - those muscles will show up before you know it!

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  10. So many of us want the changes to show NOW. We're a NOW (instant gratification) society, although I work hard to make sure my Tween isn't like that. Unless I hide him from society and TV and everything else, it still trickles to him. You'll do great. Patience, right? Vee at www.veegettinghealthy.blogspot.com

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  11. That book looks great! I am jealous.
    www.summerfitness.net

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  12. Congratulations on winning the book! I don't have HG's cookbooks, but I really enjoy her daily emails . . . she's so creative in coming up with lower-cal swaps.

    I've been feeling a little "off my game" lately too . . . reading your post made me realize that impatience is part of it for me also. Besides just wanting to enjoy the results of all this effort right now, I am concerned about the amount of damage I've done to my skin, and that makes me more impatient to know what I'll be dealing with once I reach my goal.

    On we go . . . as long as we continue to enjoy the journey, we'll get there eventually. I hope you're having a great week!

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