Saturday, November 29, 2008
Yesterday, I had my wonderful turkey sandwich concoction and cold pumpkin pie, and then had a late dinner of a green salad and a cup of soup (I was ready for something light!). But a sliver of pecan pie found its way to my mouth later in the evening - oh well. I have to say that my eating this year does.not.compare in any way to previous Thanksgivings, so I will give myself a "shows improvement" on my inner evaluation.
Funny thing...this morning when I woke up and pie was once again being consumed by everyone around me for breakfast, I did not have any desire for it. That calls for a celebration!!! Pie, anyone? (kidding!)
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I weighed myself this morning, as I do most Wednesdays. Tomorrow is the holy grail of eating, Thanksgiving. Do I plan on not eating my turkey dinner just because I’m on a diet? Oh hell no! Will I have a slice of cold pumpkin pie for breakfast on Friday morning? You betcha! And will I have a sandwich made with leftover turkey, stuffing, cranberry sauce and Miracle Whip? Of course!
Why would I do all that and possibly endanger my diet?
Two reasons. One: I love the aforementioned items. We only have them once a year. So I’m not going to deny myself – after all, Thanksgiving 2009 is a long way off! I plan on eating one plate with everything I love for dinner, pie for dessert that night, followed by breakfast pie and then the fabulous sandwich. The second reason that I plan on doing this is because I really don’t believe that eating like that will cause me to gain weight over the course of a week. Hence, the weigh-in the day before. I want to prove to myself that I can enjoy the holiday in my usual manner without gaining weight – provided I go back to normal, healthy eating after I’ve eaten what I want.
I hope that by identifying what I want to eat, I will be in control of the holiday – and not simply eating everything in sight and stuffing myself repeatedly over the course of the four-day weekend.
I’ll let you know how this worked out after I weigh in next Wednesday. And a Happy Thanksgiving to all my fellow bloggers!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Oh, how I LOVELOVELOVE cold pizza! Actually, I love a lot of cold leftovers (lasagne, spaghetti, meatloaf), but pizza is my number one. Knowing this, I have avoided having those temptations in my fridge over the past six months. I figure, why make it harder than it already is, right?
Well. Friday at work, my boss ordered in pizza for us, which was really nice, as it had been a rough couple of weeks (more on that in another post). We sat together and ate our pizza - I had two slices of "The Works" and it was so good! I enjoyed every bite! Then I got busy with customers and stuff and before long, it was time to go home - pizza (I assumed) had all been consumed.
Not so! I arrived at work on Saturday - yes, the day that I work by myself - and opened the fridge to put my yogurt in, and spied the pizza box! Nooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! I tried to resist. I peeked inside - out of the four slices left, one was "The Works." I shut the box and went back to my desk. A little while later, I heard it calling my name. If I'd had a food sponsor, I would have called her! Unfortunately, alone in the building, just me, my weak mind, and that one slice of pizza - well, you know what happened. I gave in. And it was delicious. The way the onions, peppers and mushrooms blended so well with the Canadian bacon, sausage and cheese...bliss!
I know that this could have been much worse (i.e. had there been more than one slice of "The Works" remaining) but my comfort level was breached in a bad way. In the future, I will make a better effort to NEVER have cold pizza in any fridge that I feel comfortable opening up and grazing from. It's what I HAVE to do in order to keep this weight off.
Oh cold pizza. My friend and yet my enemy. We must live separate lives from now on. I will miss you, and smile forlornly when I think of you. But it's over.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
So why am I talking about breakfast???
Because I was hungry this morning, and I actually made scrambled eggs and toast and it was tasty. Two eggs, 1 piece of toast and a glass of V-8 for me; four eggs, 3 pieces of toast and milk for Jeff. Why did he have so much? Because, um...I actually intended to just split everything down the middle, but luckily came to my senses while plating the food and exercised portion control - woohoo!!! Slowly, very slowly, eating sensibly is seeping into my brain.
Oh, and here's a bonus breakfast story for you: Thanks to all the bloggers out there raving about oatmeal, I bought a box of Kashi Instant Vanilla oatmeal. Now, I don't like hot cereals. It's been years since I have actually tried any type of hot cereal, and I thought that my tastes might have changed. So, last week (on a non-working day) I read the directions (pour in bowl, add specific amount of water, microwave 1 minute, stir, microwave another 30 seconds) - seemed simple enough, right? After I did all this, it looked soupy. Of course, I really don't really know what it should look like, seeing as I never eat the stuff. I checked the box again, and it said that you could microwave it for an additional minute to make it thicker. Great! I put the bowl back into the microwave, added a minute, turned away from the microwave (you know where this is going, right?) to pour some coffee, and turned around to see an oatmeal volcano oozing out of the bowl and onto the bottom of the microwave - ARRGH!!!!! So. After I cleaned up that mess, I started over, just doing the 1 minute 30 seconds thing and letting it sit to thicken (yes I re-read the box). After all of that, guess what? I still don't like oatmeal.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
What's this? Oh, it's my 50-pound ring. Yeppers, I have lost 50 POUNDS!!!!!! And to celebrate, I went to Coldstone Creamery...and had nothing! But James Avery was right next door, and that is where I bought my new ring. Ok, I'll admit that James Avery was my destination all along. Had ya going there for a second, didn't I?!?
The reason why I wanted a ring to reward myself for losing 50 pounds is so I can look down at my hand and remind myself of what I have accomplished, and what lies ahead, weight-loss wise. I still have a lot of weight left to lose, but I have proven to myself that it is possible - I can do it.
I lost 50 pounds in six months. I am shocked that I actually started a diet and stuck with it! I am beginning to believe that this time, I will actually reach my goal weight. And stay there. Wow.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Ahem. Back to the swirly thoughts.
Today I put on an old outfit (Lane Bryant funky print capri loungewear pants and the matching top) that I had from about 4 years ago, when I was thinner, and while the pants (size 14/16) were actually looser than I remember them being the last time I wore them (YAY!), the top made me depressed. It was short and wide and I felt F-A-T fat in it. So I took it off and checked the size...it was an 18/20. Huh. Too big. I put on a white Russell exercise top that I had purchased last July in size XL, but only wore once because it was tight, and guess what?!? Not only is it fitting nicely, but I look pretty good in it (Remember the new bra post? It's definitely working well with this shirt!). I could have spent the day in the original shirt, feeling bad about myself, but thankfully I tried another shirt and my entire outlook has brightened. What does that tell me? Well, for one, that I am shallow, but seriously, I resolve to not wear anything that I don't feel and look good in. My body image needs all the help it can get!
I read about Fage non-fat yogurt on Lori's Finding Radiance blog (amazing, inspiring weight-loss story) and asked my mother if she had tried it - she's way more adventurous than I am, so she's kind of like my guinea pig for some stuff - anyway, she did and liked it and today I tried it - measured out a serving (1 cup, drizzled it with 1 tsp. honey, and dug in. It was actually pretty good. But the funny thing is that I got full very quickly and stopped myself from finishing it just because it was there. WHAT?!? I listened to my body?!? Who am I?!?
Another thing. I posted about eating "maintenance-like" a couple days a week, and for me that was Friday and Saturday. We went to Art Step on Friday night and ate at a really cool restaurant, where I had some yummy super-garlicky garlic bread (they put it on your table when you sit down) and then I had the braised short ribs w/garlic mashed potatoes and green beans. It was soooo good. And I didn't finish it all - stopped about 3/4 the way in and passed the plate to my human garbage disposal, er, husband. We didn't even get dessert, I was that full. And Saturday afternoon we had a Papa Murphy's Take and Bake pizza - one of the de-lite ones that has a super thin crust, less sauce and half the cheese. It was good, but later on I felt kind of blech. I realized that I have been feeling much better on the days that I eat lots of veggies, lean proteins and good, fiber-y grains. So. More motivation to keep on the right track.
And thus ends another rambling, random post. Now you know the inside of my mind - it's a weird and funny and sometimes scary place to be!
Friday, November 7, 2008
One thing I am noticing is that with all this weight off, I am able to be on my feet and run around and not have to sit down and rest. So that's another benefit of my weight loss - woot!
And speaking of losing weight, it has definitely slowed down. Of course, I am not hard-core dieting seven days a week, either. Right now, I have about 5 very low-calorie days, with 2 “maintenance” eating (i.e. how I would eat if I were at my ideal size) days. I have been dieting since mid-May and have lost close to 50 pounds. I still have a lot to lose. But it’s not a race, and I’m at a good place right now. And for today, that’s ok.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Sunday, November 2, 2008
1. It's the beginning of the month, which means PAYDAY, so I can restock my kitchen!
2. Kashi Honey and Almond Flax crunch cereal - so good and so good-for-you!
3. This recipe from Rachel Ray, which I will be making tonight.
4. Target is putting out all kinds of boxed gift sets for the holidays, so Jeff and I treated ourselves to new razors - with extras! (Hey, it's the little things sometimes...)
5. Online bill pay - LOVE not having to write out checks or use stamps!
6. Getting an extra hour today - I know it's psychological, but I always have more energy on the day Daylight Savings Time ends.
7. A stack of good books from the library and time to read them.
8. Two, count 'em, two Christmas gifts bought!
9. Trying on pants at a "normal" store and fitting into them!!!
10. Getting a car repaired for under $200 bucks - woot!
I did get my exercise in last week on M,T,W, and was great on my eating until Friday...then I was just ok, as Halloween candy arrived at work and I ate some - not a lot, but still. All in all, I count last week as a success.
So...the plan for this week is that I'll exercise with WeeFee again this M,T,W, and keep with the under 800 calorie days for the most part. So far this seems to work for me, and I can work in some higher-calorie meals on Friday and Saturday and still lose some weight. It's a lifestyle change for me...choosing to eat really healthy, low-calorie foods most of the time, with a few indulgences thrown in. No, I'm not losing weight quite as quickly as I was while I was on the NutriMed shakes, but I don't feel deprived, either. Oh, and I WILL update my blog more often!